Rise Above or Fall Below

In addition to the samples on CDBaby, you can listen to samples of the songs on this album at the following places:
MY ATTEMPT AT OBJECTIVITY:
3 (or so) years in the making, this album
has been through all manner of personal ups and downs...perhaps that is why
it's basic theme is "be in the world but not of the world". This is an
album both of transcendence...and my usual social/political/philosophical
observations/criticism/bitching. Musically this could best be filed
under "Eclectic...REALLY Eclectic"...and it is a work that I am VERY proud
of. It is a quantum leap from Hell's Laughter, but is still
identifiable as the sort of thing I would have made if you are familiar with
my earlier work.
CREDITS:
I did everything on this album with the following exceptions:
Greg Kutcher (no relation to Ashton) did the incredible guitar work on The Way.
Ken Shaw added some really nifty accents on a hand drum on Still Comes the Dawn that I tuned down via the miracle of software to about the pitch of a tympani.
Tom Kozup lent the use of his studio (Digital Vision) for some vocals that were way too loud to sing in my apartment (on SUV, Feet of Clay, The Beast of Armageddon) and recorded the vocals for ...or Fall Below. He did the mastering too.
Michael Moore (not the one you're thinking of) engineered/recorded some of my vocals on The Whore of Babylon, Filling the Hole, SUV, The Way, Mediocrity, Home, and Mr. Sad. He also ran some of the tunes through some nifty mastering-type software that made things sound way spiffy.
Lyrics:
The Whore of Babylon
Hello...do you remember me?
I was your conscience before the fall.
Here before the beginning,
before all this living buried it all.
Sold your soul to illusions,
the blinding desires of fortune and fame.
Forgot all your true passions,
the visions that led you before you became
the Whore of Babylon.
Control and the will to power
claimed you like an addict, a moth to a flame.
Trapped by the chains of consumption,
the machine of commerce, that gave you this name:
the Whore of Babylon.
Web
Here we are watching everything unravel,
all the wonders of life now fade before our eyes.
Nature’s certainties now frail and sick and weary,
all her unities now falter fail and die
Grasping hands rend the web of things connected
our feeding frenzy and our thirst for more and more
The deserts we produce host the tombs of our grandchildren
who will reap the bounty of the warnings we ignored.
Implosion and erosion
Contortion and corrosion.
Debate and disavow and justify inaction
as the storm gathers above our busy heads.
Pretend the clouds are not looming on the horizon
shut out the visions and the fleeting face of dread.
Filling the Hole
Playing the part, chasing so hard, climbing so far
and sending all your ego's armies
marching off to nowhere.
Sensing no fall, wanting it all, heeding the call
of this sirens sad and sorry wailing
calling out to land you
upon her rocks false promise,
her barren land of plenty.
That shining ring, these worldly things...
you're bartering your life.
Filling the hole, feigning control, pawning your soul
to be with all the moneyed people
living out their daydreams
in television splendor
in full suburban languor.
All you can get without regret,
as you forfeit your life.
Now you're some spoiled spent thing
lying in the ashes
poisoned by the nectar
of all your earthly passions.
The darkest sleep...as angels weep
you'll fight to keep your life.
And as you pass and breathe your last
might you just grasp the true meaning of life?
Rise Above
Poor soul without a place to call home
plagued by the nagging echoes of the past you've disowned.
Poor soul all alone in the cold
with a drug-addled vision of the future you've sold.
Be in the world but not of the world.
Poor soul working day after day
with all of your worries and those debts to pay.
Poor soul, lines on your face and your hands
reflect the endless procession of mundane demands.
Be in the world but not of the world.
Rise above or fall below...
Poor soul with all your money and power
with your meager view of the world you devour.
Poor soul with all your status and fame,
with the hidden hurts of an ego inflamed.
Be in the world but not of the world.
Rise above or fall below...
SUV
It’s all going to go away
so use up all you can today
Hoard all the manna of progress you find,
suck it all down ‘til it makes you go blind
You were drinking your ambrosia and feeding on the fat
as the dinner bell of plenty started ringing flat.
You were basking in the sweetness of luxury and leisure,
wading in the excrement of unconscionable pleasure
Buy a thing, another thing, and then some things to house them,
eat the leaves and gnaw the roots and suck the juicy stems.
Frivolous and carefree, living second to second…
(the skeletal hand of the future now beckons).
Spend your way to nowhere with debts you’ll never manage
Soulless and rapacious and mindless of the damage
Driving towards the better life (always one purchase farther)
down a road paved with all the lives our countries bartered
Driving by in my SUV.
The worlds is a playground for your appetites,
as long as it feels good it must be right.
And little dark people are working so hard
so you can max out your fat credit card.
You have hungers and desires the past could not imagine
and you don’t see how your consumption fans the fires of famine.
Images flicker on the screen that speak of desperation
caused by the sick desires of a fat decadent nation.
Watch them die on my big TV.
The Way
I'm here in every branch and fiber,
in every stone trod underfoot,
forgotten dust in every corner,
in every leaf, in every root.
I'm here through any tempest or conflict,
through every writers aching pen,
through any flaw, lack, or defect,
the love and loss of any friend.
I am the way, I am the light, come to me.
If love, luck, and fortune neglect you
and none of life's wounds ever mend,
I'm here, I will never forget you,
at the start or at the end.
Still Comes the Dawn
Time is not on your side
and still so much further to ride
to a place that for now you call home;
your temporary shelter from the unknown
(For what, for whom) driving blind through the gloom.
The night stretches on, yet still comes the dawn.
All the people you've know
in their own ways have grown
while you look in vain for your place,
some elusive comfort, some friendly place.
Old friends now gone (one backwards glance on),
now travel beyond...and still comes the dawn.
Days pass by in a rush,
you feel numb and strangely untouched.
Sometimes you want to run away
to some far off anonymous place.
Abandon your name and stake a new claim...
yet you carry on and still comes the dawn.
Mediocrity
I awoke and realized that all my purposes are vain
and every path that I choose leads to another set of chains.
My will to transcend the world leads to more worldly pain,
as seemingly the worlds intent is to drive me insane.
I deserve a break...
My same old strident ego keeps on making its demands
while my juvenile emotions keep me from being a man.
Any solid ground where I tread just dissolves into sand
and everything just falls apart no matter how I plan.
I deserve a break...from me!
Mediocrity.
Someone's getting in my way, a malevolence I can't see
who drags me into situations of grief and misery.
He sets me up for failure and observes my fall with glee
(yet in my quiet moments I know that malevolence is just me).
This empty life, this hallow curse,
every tear, every fear, I get worse and worse.
All failed glories I have stalked,
every stumbling mile I walk,
every well-meant plan that fails,
all potential freedoms jailed...
it's not my fault!
(it's ALL my fault!)
Blame me?
Blame me!
Feet of Clay
You've got a look that says that you're looking for something,
you've got a walk that says that you're easily led.
Come into my parlor, come in seeking refuge, got something to tell you.
Come in, be at comfort. Come in fit for sleeping (good news to sell you).
I think that you would make a fine addition to my collection
of wandering souls and those who somehow lost their way.
Lay you down your burdens, lay in soothing waters of peace and plenty.
Lay down all your worries, lay down all your anger, make your mind empty.
I come walking towards you bearing gifts on my feet of clay.
My wisdom enfolds you and my loving hand points the way.
I am your pope, I am your guru, I am your savior.
I am the source of all the answers that you lack.
I'll be your salvation, I'll end all your questions...your journey's ended.
I'm your destination. I'm your new addiction (you're undefended).
I come walking towards you, saccharine words and my feet of clay.
I'm just a humble shepard for wandering souls who've gone astray.
I come slinking towards you, sulfur breath and my feet of clay,
you're transfixed, enraptured, your soul is mine...you can't get away.
You bleed, I feed, my need is to own you title and deed. Bound to my will and creed.
My claim, I aim to tame you till you're a pliable thing...so you can kiss my ring.
I'll still your will, I'll kill it with my bluster and power. I'll make you fumble and cower.
You ache, I take, I'll break you down to your basic parts...dine on your heavy heart.
Home
So you are tired, so you are weary, so you are haunted,
and there is little left that serves to keep you here.
Run out of words, run out of fire, run out of wonder,
and the world's a hollow place that feeds you guilt and fear.
(Time and distance.)
All that you've tried, all that you've sought, and all you've forsaken,
and all the dreams you've lost with your forgotten goals.
This heavy weight, this empty plate, this aching yearning,
and all the comforts you seek just tax your sleeping soul.
You are never alone, you are never alone.
No matter how far you roam you will always have a home.
Tired of wanting, tired of needing, tired of constant craving,
and there's a hole in you that never will be filled.
The secret wound, the waiting tomb, the sense of endless folly
that pulls you further down and saps your fleeting will.
Mr. Sad
I don't want this damn job anymore.
I get so very tired of it all.
It always seems that I arrive dimming hopes,
then always leave some bloodied soul against the ropes.
I wish I had something to make you happy...
all the news I bring is bad.
Sincerity becomes a joke now and then
when honest words do not produce what you intend,
but cast a pall over the best and brightest times...
poison the ground with bitter seeds and twisted rhymes.
Maybe it's a good thing that no one's really listening,
and those few gathered sing "he's mad"!
Make me a deal, make me unreal, make me disappear,
and I won't drag you down with my words anymore.
To wage a war against yourself is to lose.
Identity is not something you can choose.
My arrival brings but grief, angst, and pain...
and in my wake, after the flood, come the rain.
And I do celebrate my lack of credibility
and all failed prophecies I've had.
The Beast of Armageddon
There's a hole in the world that's filling up with dark.
There's a hole in our hearts where the world has left its mark.
There's a void in the mind of the man with the gun,
there's a coldness in the place where his soul has come undone.
There's a bomb-wielding maniac bred on rage and hate
making plans and praising god and hiding at the gate.
There's a white collar criminal who will lie and cheat and bribe
to sell the filth of progress, brand new poisons to imbibe.
There's a hole in the world that's filling up with dark.
There's a hole in our hearts where the world has left its mark.
There's a bible-thumping simpleton polishing his guns
waiting for a Jesus who will never ever come.
There's a legion of robotic youths dancing to the beat
of depravity and illness and a future in retreat.
There's a nation full of empty souls existing to consume
every toy and trinket and ticket to their doom.
Enter the Beast! All hail the Beast!
There's a hole in the world that's filling up with dark.
There's a hole in our hearts where the world has left its mark.
There's a oil-soaked president with blood staining his hands,
knowing that a hungry world will increase it's demands.
There's a rising sense of panic under the commercial glaze
that gnaws at your assumptions of brighter future days.
There's the sinking feeling you will get as find you've been betrayed,
it's the outrage of the hopeless who know that they have all been played.
...or Fall Below
And so you move beyond your time,
beyond this world, the mortal line.
And visions come to add the sum
of all you've done...all you've become.
All your mistakes, all your heartaches,
what pain you've caused, your moral flaws.
To rise above or fall below.
To grasp the world or let it go.
The visions pass, your first and last,
all in between, your every scene.
What joy you've brought, wisdom you've sought,
your clarity and charity.
Reviews:
Review by Mitch Phillips for Michiganbands.com
John Ludi is the latest persona of a local music veteran whose spent better than twenty years creating music both with bands such as "Pliny The Elder" and "Soft War" and as a solo artist. After returning to Michigan three years ago, battered and bruised from a soul-searching trek across America, John Ludi turned his thoughts inward and began his latest, and perhaps greatest work, entitled "Rise Above or Fall Below".
If you've been to his website, you'd know that John Ludi loiters on the fringe of popular culture: where undisclosed numbers of alien abductions and cattle-mutilations are covered-up to prevent a worldwide panic; where out-of-body-experiences are investigated to validate the existence of the soul; where a small faction of social deviants practice yoga, mindfulness meditation and live 'a lifestyle of voluntary simplicity, frugality, and avoidance of debt' (a radical notion in 21st century America if ever there were one); and where some truly interesting things happen if you're paying any attention. Ludi doesn't collect "Anomalinks" as he calls them because he's gullible or prone to conspiracy theories, but because he's well-read and insatiably curious about a world in which he finds himself ill-at-ease.
To everyday, red-state, Bush/Cheney bumper-sticker folk who insist that conspicuous consumption and media-inspired ass- sniffing are the height of human experience, John Ludi is just another deluded liberal (though he insist on the term "pragmatist") blathering on about finite resources and unnecessary violence in a world intent on eating itself. But to those who feel comfortable on the fringe, despite its capricious and sometimes silly nature, and who realize the value of curiosity and the rarity of humility in a world controlled by arrogant, hyper-confident predators and the wanna-bees who will lie, cheat, kick and kill to take their place, John Ludi is the voice of sanity put to music - more precisely, well- crafted, synth-pop rooted in late 70's to early 80's art-rock and new-wave.
"Rise Above or Fall Below" is Ludi's latest release, a cohesive collection of 13 songs with a nod back to art-rock and new-wave in the tradition of of Peter Murphy, Peter Gabriel, David Bowie, Nick Cave and bands such as The Fixx and Roxy Music.
The songs tackle such heady themes as modern decadence ("Whore of Babylon"), spiritual opportunism ("Feel of Clay"), diminishing biodiversity ("Web") and insatiable materialism ("SUV"). There's also a bit of introspective self-loathing to keep him from getting too puffed-up ("Mediocrity" and "Mr. Sad") and failing that, Ludi works his punk muscle on "Best of Armageddon".
But its Ludi's personal struggle and his search for meaning in life that makes this musical journey so compelling. You can hear his hunger for enlightenment on the hip-tripping dance gem "Rise Above" and his belief in transcendent divinity on "The Way". There's a weary wistfulness on "Still Comes The Dawn" and palpable yearning on the closer "...or Fall Below".
Though relatively dark for a pop culture hit, "Rise Above or Fall Below" is a compelling listen from a seasoned artist in search of self-realization.
Review by Marcus Pan for Legends Magazine
It's been four years since Ludi's blend of raucous humor, interesting accompaniments and left field visions have crossed my desk. Late 2001 was when Hell's Laughter and Heaven's Ache(1) made it to us. John Ludi's style has changed only minimally, showing a higher standard of recording and more maturity, but retains the same tongue in cheek left field advances that he was purporting back then. Much about John is artistically inclined. Even the press kit is hilariously sarcastic and brilliantly written from the opening statement: "God I hate press kits!!!" to the enclosed "Impersonal Form Letter" and the requiscent Press Release written as objectively and distantly as possible.
The opening Whore of Babylon takes a dark cliché and bubbilizes it with pleasant synthetics and key licks. "Hello? Do you remember me? I was your conscience." is the first lyric of the Rise Above or Fall Below release and already gives you an idea of the writing skills of John. This opening track, on the whole, is slow moving and almost dragging without becoming boring, the synthesizers keeping the otherwise sloopy rhythm from getting mired in the mud and pulling it along brilliantly – a bright melody, dark content and dragging beat all fused together into a cohesive piece of music.
The happy thump of Web follows and is combated by the light strumming strains of guitars and keys. Filling the Hole gets quicker in speed, but somehow retains a strangely effervescent quality to itself regardless of the heavier guitar melody and strong keyboard chords. After some strangeness we get smooth and leery with The Way which flutes its way into the mix. Zen like in its lyrical content, The Way is an uplifting piece amidst the previous strangeness. Still Comes the Dawn continues this style, but utilizes guitars more heavily instead of keys.
Mediocrity defies its name by being possibly the most climactic song on Rise Above or Fall Below. This gives way to the groovy bassline of Feet of Clay. Chorus parts slam into a heavy-handed and unexpected groove with the end result being Feet of Clay is a top track on the release. Home reminds me of shoegazery rock by Plastic Houses(2), Cinnamon Drafthouse(3) or JackieOnAssid(4). Another favorite, Mr. Sad, continues this trend – John tends to bundle his songs in nice patches of 2 or 3 likeminded tracks.
John Ludi has a certain laid back but honest groove about him and his work. From the ethereal pieces like The Way and Still Comes the Dawn to the guitar-centered Filling the Hole and groovy Feet of Clay, he can mix and match colors and sounds like a Lite Brite on acid. Always on the fringe of the mainstream with his sarcasm and wit, John Ludi is worth checking out...he can save the day from the doldrums of radio.
John Ludi bills himself as a TRULY independent recording
artist, as well as a writer, social critic and paranormal researcher, whose
musical roots are in 70s prog and punk. With credentials like that, it’s perhaps
not surprising that he self releases. But surely this is just because record
companies have no imagination.
Rise Above Or Fall Below starts off with the epic Whore of Babylon, an
ecclesiastical organ setting the mood. A little over a minute in, it shifts to
percussion and piano in a slow north african march beat. Ludi sings about
illusion and desire. A prog chorus kicks in — “The Whore of Babylon!” — and then
back to the march beat. The chorus repeats, an eastern-sounding guitar solo
takes us out. The song is a little over 7 minutes long. I don’t normally do
blow-by-blows like this, but I haven’t heard a song like this in years.
Certainly, John Ludi harks back to a mid 70s vibe that isn’t often emulated, or
at least not with a straight face. Is he serious? Well, yes. John Ludi is a man
with a message but he’s also a musician, and this is his music. And his message.
I won’t actually tell you what the message is but here are a few song titles:
Web, Filling the Hole, SUV, Mediocrity, Feet of Clay, Mr. Sad, The Beast of
Armageddon. Despite the titles, there’s really no pontificating. You can hear
prophecy or not, depending on your mood and/or openness to strange new ideas.
Having just reviewed Todd Rundren, I’m more inclined to listen to John Ludi
openly. And despite my resistance to prog (I am female, after all), I found
myself liking this record. Filling The Hole has a nice choral arrangement. Ditto
for Rise Above which is again epic, in a good way. Beast Of Armageddon is an
all-out rocker. The percussion is solid throughout. The guitars are interesting.
The psychedelic effects are fun. Ludi’s vocals grow on you. It’s a bit long, I
will say that, but otherwise, what’s not to like?
All the same, I have a hard time picturing a large market for this album. Sure,
my prog friends who grew up in the 70s in places like Baltimore and Buffalo, but
what about the kids... Then again, White Stripes are a huge hit, so you never
can tell. Prog revival anyone?
Go Ludi Go, Show ‘em how it’s done! Get the blood pumping! “The Beast of Armageddon” can do just that with some of these mediocre artists. It doesn’t all have to be grey or blue. “Feet of Clay” for instance, has John shouting out the lyrics while the drums are being played the way rock was meant to be played. Then in the very next song “Home”, John starts out sing with a breathy vocal that shows off his range. Just then I’m really starting to believe. Great vocal range, equally talented drum technique, guitar progressions and lead work that screams “ROCK”, and what can I say. THANK YOU!!! Now it’s time to write, and suddenly I can’t find more than a couple of musician credits-Ken Shaw and Greg Kutcher. I feel like I’m walking into my friend’s house who has his own picture in every frame. Say it ain’t so Ludi (who sings) and who knows what else and who else and all else.